Weight Loss

When I was a kid I was scrawny.  Seriously.  That with my very pale skin always made people ask if I was ill.  It was charming.  In Year 7 when us girls first started to notice our weight and call each other fat as insults, I bit the bullet and decided to stop eating.  Unfortunately, my Headteacher's secretary notice and called my Mum.  It meant that for a while in Year 7, this secretary would come into the canteen to make sure that I was eating.   Eventually it managed to stop and I blew up like a balloon.

I've definitely never gone into the obese section.  My waist has never been bigger than 28.  I'm just hit with the Kemp genetics and given an hourglass figure that just looks hideously bulky.  For years I've despaired of my hips - I still do, fretted about getting a double chin, been terrified of the ideas of thunder thighs and muffin tops and then around my birthday in June, I got sick.

On occasion, my body likes to put me through excruciating pain for no apparent reason.  My hyper mobility has been proposed as one suggestion - side effects of depression another.  Anyway, my appetite pretty much disappeared that day and I haven't seen it since!!

So I am now anti-carbs and pro-salad all the way and feeling so much happier for it.  I love the fact that my hipbones stick out more now.  I feel confident enough to wear the crop top I got for my birthday.  I adore it when people notice that weight has slid off.

At the end of the day, whenever I think about chocolate or other naughty things - I just ask what I'd rather have.  That chocolate or:

A) A good female role in a play/film/tv show etc.
B) A guy
C) A thigh gap

So this was me a couple of days ago (please ignore the face and hair).  No need to fret, that is not the crop top I got for my birthday - that is a top that I used to wear all the time when I was eight.  To be honest I'm astounded that the sleeves are still long enough!!

I've now got myself a bikini top (it was the sale and couldn't find the bottoms - must buy later) and planning on giving it an airing on holiday.

I'm determined to get skinny.

And very excited for the change.