Some people react like that's something I plan, or something I have any control over. It's not. It's like you wake up, but you're not fully functioning. I didn't get dressed until 3 o'clock today because that simple task was just so overwhelming and terrified me. That happens sometimes. It's not something I can just snap out of.
My parents are great when I'm in this state of mind though. When I still hadn't perked up, Dad came to pick me up to take me to the school fete that they were at (the only reason I even got dressed today). Going outside was horrible. Being amongst people was even worse, but it was something that I needed to get up and do.
On the bright side I saw one of my old friends there doing the face painting. That put me at ease quite a bit more and I kinda became her shadow for a bit. A massive part of me was screaming at me, begging to go home - but instead I summoned up all of my courage and I proposed that we go into town. Obviously, I knew that a wander around wasn't going to help so I picked a reason to go - to get the next Game of Thrones book!!
The mooch around town did me good and I found it great to spend some time with her, but I'd still say this is a down day. What I'm trying to repeat though is that although it has been a down day, I've also been trying to make it a good day and that's what is more important. I'm quite scared about what I'm going to do with myself for the rest of the evening, so once I've finished this off I'm going to go and make a plan.
Anyway, that was by day. I leave you with this inspirational video:
http://www.upworthy.com/5-nutcases-you-completely-respect-will-make-you-think-twice-about-the-ones-you-dont?c=ufb1
And a picture of me with face paint....
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