“The secret of happiness is not in doing what one likes, but in liking what one does.”

So I've had a good couple of weeks.  Everything seems to be falling into place.  But this morning, I woke up on a 'down day'.

My dad's encouraged me to go out into the sunshine, but I can't imagine having to leave my room.  Outside my window seems like a place that isn't meant for someone like me.  The only place I'm safe is sitting here on my bed.

When you have down days they tell you to keep active, get busy, go outside - basically do something.  But it's so much harder to actually do.  I'd like to be having a good day today, but I'm not and I feel that there's not much I can really do about that.  The sun is shining outside and I'm in my room shivering and just wanting to sleep until I can wake up happy again.

I try and persuade myself to think of the things that have made me happy recently, but every time I do a negative seems to come flying out of nowhere to knock it over.  I'm left feeling guilty and hopeless.

Anyway, this was my attempt to try and rationalise how I'm feeling at the moment to try and perk me up again but it's not really working.  I hope it does soon.  I hope I'll get better.